All your answers seem to mix well and have been helpful. Uhm, except for you, Barry. I hope you're wrong. LOL
I think I relate most with what Lozhasleft said: it seems that cults capitalize on individuals/couples who have a particular 'need' to belong?identify? I learned pretty early in life to be a bit of a loner and that it does no good to beat myself up trying to measure myself against others.
AllTimeJeff: Many JW's who don't believe stay in as a survival strategy. I think maybe a security blanket affect also. I feel the lure of that security blanket, just the comfort of what's familiar tugging at me. I miss people. I miss my family.
Thanks for your all your contributions.